All the world becomes a swingset when you laugh

Lily

2004-10-14T03:43:16Z

Rats live just long enough for you to love them so incredibly much, and then there gone.

lost_in_love5 @ 2004-09-04T01:40:00

2004-09-04T08:38:29Z

Today was the most amazing birthday I have ever had. I could not be happier. Sleep tight and sweet dreams, xoxo
Jen

lost_in_love5 @ 2004-08-30T22:10:00

2004-08-31T06:09:34Z

I couldn't have asked for a more perfect weekend to end my summer. I went down to Burlingame cause my parents went to a Bar Mitzvah and I got to stay with one of my camp friends. Her name is Eliza and she invited me cause shes gonna have a reunion for are whole bunk and even though I would miss anything to go to it, I am being forced to go to Indiana a day after my birthday for a wedding. To everyone from session 3 tawonga, I love you guy soooo much, even more than E.T. loves Jenny (heehee). Theres no words to describe how much I miss you guys.
Eliza and I had a great time and when I first got there we went together to get two new baby rats for her! I finially met someone who loves rats as much, if not more, than me. I am so happy : ) Getting the rats was a little tricky cause we had to go to the breeders house who happened to be an extreemly creepy 40 year old man. We were really scared cause this guy seemed really scary on the phone and when we got there he had what looked like secret cameras everywhere. It seemed like we were in there forever but it didnt matter how scary or creepy he was cause when we got to see the rats they were so perfect! He took such great care of these rats and even though its kind weird that a full grown man like him would spend all his time devoting himself to these rats, they were some of the most happy rats ive ever seen. We picked two very pretty hooded female babies who were so very cute. I was kinda relieved when we got out of there but I was so happy to have been able to go to get them with her. When we got home we played with them and started thinking of names. It took us a while but we finially came up with some names that fit them really well and that she liked. The one who is a little skinnier and has a lighter hood is Bitsy and the darker one is Button. She was excited about button cause she could nickname it butt and then call it tush : ) They are two of the cutest rats I have ever seen. They are so cuddly and sweet. I took some pictures of them and they came out really good:

The Top one is Bitsy and the bottom one is Button.

Button looking cute.

Bitsy hiding in her house.

Sisterly love.

The rest of the weekend we hung out, went swimming, and watched a really intense movie called Thirteen. The whole weekend was amazing. I wish I felt that way about every day this summer but im so glad my summer ended well. I hope everyone's summers were wonderful, Love always,
xoxo Jen

Take me home, down Country Roads

2004-07-08T08:42:21Z

Country Roads...
Take me home...
To the place...
I belong

Being at camp makes me happier than almost anything in the world. I am so lucky to get to spend another session there. To all my fellow Tawongans who I wont be seeing this year, I love you bunches and miss you tons.
XOXOXO
~Jen

lost_in_love5 @ 2004-04-25T00:13:00

2004-04-25T07:15:05Z

I feel so horrible. I took my dad to this restaurant that I love so much today for lunch and now he is really sick. He has really bad food poisoning and is barfing everywhere. : (
Ive never seen my dad this sick, I feel so bad. Today was not a happy day.
Sleep tight, dont let the bed bugs bite! xoxo

lost_in_love5 @ 2004-03-29T00:05:00

2004-03-29T08:34:13Z

This weekend was sooooo packed! Im wiped.
Fri~ Went to High Society, congrats to everyone in it! Mustve took sooo much work.

Sat~ I met up with Sophie and Hannah and I went to dim sum for the first time ever! It was soooo fricikin awsome!!!!! People just kept coming around offering us food. I had no idea what the people were saying but Hannah was on top of it and everything was great! I have no idea what I ate but it was all so yummy. The one part that was a little sketchy was the people bringing the food around would cut the food with scissors, so we were getting some egg rolls and the lady whips out this pair of scissors. Hannah was laughing so hard, she said my face was priceless, I guess I just wasnt ready for it. : )
After Dim Sum we went down to the haight and walked around all afternoon. I realized how much I love the city and wish I could get down there more often. I felt so good cause I bought a present for my sis, my mom, and my cousin for her b-day. Unfortunatly, my sis cant wear the earings I bought for her and I got my mom two left shoes, but its the thought that counts.

Sun~ Went to midrasha in the morning which wasnt as intense as last time when we made matza, wow what an event that was. I saw Colby after and she decided that I had to see the first Dirty Dancing so we walked to the video store and when we got there she realized that her vcr wasnt workin. When we got back we turned on the tv and the the channel we were on was Dirty Dancing!!!!
After that we made a really good attempt to bake a cake but we didnt have any oil so we decided to substitute the oil for coke which was not such a good idea. The batter was very good but the whole kitchen ended up filled with smoke and we learned that coke burns, really badly. Heehee.

I cant believe school starts in 7 hours
Sleep tight, dont let the bed bugs bite! xoxoxo

Country Roads

2004-03-23T06:14:37Z

I found some great camp pics from a few years ago, I miss camp and everything about it so much! Thinking of camp makes me feel so good (happy tear). Love always, xoxoxo

Jackie, Sunnye, Genina, Sophie, Katt, and Imo looking pretty for shabbat

Sunnye and Sharon showing Eldad his feminine side. heehee, I love you guys!

Friends, Friends, Friends, we will always be

Yosemite is so pretty! Almost heaven, Camp Tawonga.

lost_in_love5 @ 2004-03-22T19:43:00

2004-03-23T03:46:51Z

Today was one of those terrible, horrible, no good, very bad days
xoxo : (

you are my sunshine

2004-03-15T07:14:51Z

Last week was great. I made up with my mom. We went out together and i could finally talk to her like she was my mom, it made me so happy that she cared about being with me. My dad was gone most of the week, but i did see him on wednesday. We went to the dmv to get another permit cause i washed mine and another registration cause he shreded his. The lady looked at us like we were crazy and then just started laughing at us. As much as i hate the dmv, it wasnt as bad as i thought it was gonna be. I drove to the beach afterwards and we hung out, it was such a gorgeous day. The water was freezing but it felt really nice after laying in the sun. We couldnt stay too long cause I had to get down to the city for a doctors appointment which is ridiculous cause all he does is has me bend over and measures my spine and sends me off to get x-rays, i saw him all of about 5 minutes. We ended up staying in the city, i realized that i love the city and miss it tons. I went there a lot over the break and i went to haight street for the first time with my friend sophie, it was so much fun although we had a little trouble at one part of the street. We ended up buyin some incense and giving away a whole lot of money but it was great to walk around and see everything. I got back from a retreat up at newman with RUSTY yesterday and am dead tired, i love camp more than any other place in the world. The trip made me feel so great and i miss it already, cant wait till spring conclave. NFTY makes me smile. XOXOXO

Stuck in bed

2004-02-29T01:48:17Z

Whole body is achey...
Head is throbbing...
Can't swallow without hurting...

I really hope i get better soon : (

Hokie Pokie

2004-02-22T09:13:14Z

Today was my little cousins birthday, he turned 5. He melts my heart, so very cute! I spent the day sleeping and going to his birthday party which consisted of lots of little kids running around and my dad getting very drunk. My aunt had a singing guy come and did a little mini attempt on karaoke with the kids that ended up being a huge battle over who could sing the ABC's the best. All the kids were great but after an hour it, i had to go out to the car for a while and take a breather. Doing the hokie pokie many times in a row with little kids all over you really sucks the life out of you. I fell asleep at my aunts house after the party to wake up to my cousins jumping on me and yelling "its present time!!!". Wow was that an event. By the end of it all, i was past the point of being really tired and was kind of just there.
My dad has been wanting to see the Lord of the Rings movie with me for weeks before it leaves the big screen so i drove down to the city for my second time, which was not such a good idea because i dont know how awake i was. It was really scary going across the bridge in the dark, i dont know if im gonna do it again for a while. We got there just as it started and all i can say about that movie is that it is the frickin longest movie i have ever seen!!!! It was really intense and kept my attention most of the time but oh my goodness it never ended! I sware Frodo and Sam are in love, they should just confess it and start making out at the end. Today reminded me of how all last week went, it just seemed so long, but its the weekend thank goodness, i cant wait to get in bed. Sleep tight, don't let the bed bugs bite. xoxoxoxoxo

Shocked

2004-02-12T07:06:12Z

I can't belive he did that, i dont know if i can ever trust him again.

lost_in_love5 @ 2004-02-09T00:33:00

2004-02-09T08:56:27Z

I think my rat is sick, shes acting all lethargic and not herself. I really hope shes ok, i dont really know what to do to make a rat feel better besides rubbing her head and giving her food.
Ive been having some real problems with my mom latley. Everything i do makes her more and more dissapointed with me, she definatly brings out the worst in me. I have to say i feel awful about loosing her coat and making her upset but today she told me that i was irresponsible and worthless. She even told me to shut the fuck up and my mother never swares, this was the first time she has ever sworn at me. It makes me feel awful that i am such a failure in my mother's eyes, she says she hates coming upstairs. I really want to make it better but it dosnt help that she always tells my sisters that she loves them and shows it, but has been ignoring me and the fact that i am having trouble. She came upstairs today while i was talking to a good friend on the phone, and grounded me on the spot, without any warning and for no reason at all. She just said she was upset that i was on the phone, I have no idea why. It seems like i never see my dad any more and he dosnt know whats going on so i have no one to vouch for me. It kills me to see her so upset and when she cries, i dont know what to do. I love my mom, and i realize that she loves me too, but is it only because she has to?

lost_in_love5 @ 2004-02-04T21:34:00

2004-02-05T05:36:15Z

Ooooh im in such a cuddly mood right now but i have no one to cuddle with. So sad xoxoxo

Ouch

2004-01-23T04:11:19Z

Yesterday I had the worst migraine of my life : ( It hurt like hell! I was fine till i got home but later when I was in the shower my head started throbbing and it felt like it was going to explode! I thought i was going to black out right there in the shower. I passed out on my bed at like 6 and was out cold till 8 the next morning! They're usually not so bad for me but this time it was awful because everything i did to make it feel better just made it worse plus i was so naucous that i couldn't even hold down water (ick). I dont usually get them unless im dehydrated so i don't know what this was about. My mom said that she woke me up a couple times and gave me some drugs but i dont remember a thing. It was sorta good cause I got caught up on all the sleep ive missed and i missed my first two classes but it was definatly not worth it. Then my dad calls up the next morning and tells me to make sure i dont excercise or get my heart rate up at all cause the drugs he gave me contract your blood vessels and there was a case when a girl my age had a heart attack after taking it. He scared the shit out of me and the rest of the day i was walking extra slow, my friends thought i was crazy (heehee). It was one of the worst experiences of my life so for all those people out there who get migraines a lot i am so sorry cause that must be horrible. : (
Lots of love xoxoxo
~jen

who wrote the book of love

2004-01-16T08:28:22Z

~Today was actually not too bad for a thursday. Thursday is usually the longest day of the week but i think what made it better is knowing that im gonna be at NFTY tomorrow! There are no words to describe how excited i am!!!
~My biology class is the hardest class i have ever taken and this week it was so boring that one of the shadows fell asleep during it! Between my friend and I, we have slept through a good amount of the classes. And it dosnt help that were learning about stars and planets now so all we do is sit in the dark and look at slides. The only variations in our class are the very wrong sex jokes made by our teacher who is so old that my mom could have probably been one of his students. We are learning a lot but i cant wait till we move on to another topic.
~In spanish today we were learning about the weather and my teacher brought in a talking elmo doll who speaks spanish!! my friend hannah and i started laughing so hard that we were practically crying. We had to leave the class but not before my teacher gave me the "what the hell are you doing" look.
~Tomorrow is gonna be a great day and i cant wait to see all of my NFTY friends. Sammy, Lorraine, Ethan, Dina, Sarah, Mari, Sash, Yoni, Andrew, the fygbi crew, and everyone else! I loooove you all! xoxo

Measure in Love

2004-01-09T07:13:31Z

This is my first post ever on live journal and i am so excited. I have been looking for something like this for a very long time and i think it is one of the greatest things ever.
Lately it seems like everything i do, leads to something awful. Things have been happening one after another that make me question whether i am doing the right things. I have no idea why horrible things happen but i try to brush them aside and blame it on myself to escape from what i really have to deal with. Unfortunately, a lot of my friends have been dealing with really hard stuff recently too. It is the worst feeling for me to see my friends upset and it kills me when people i love are sad. My heart goes out to all of my friends who are dealing with everything from drugs to divorce to suicide. I am sry if that made no sense, but it feels so good to vent.
On a happier note, i just realized i have a lot to look forward to and that i am so excited for. First, i am so happy that i get to see all my nfty friends at tri! I cant wait! it is going to be so much fun (3 nights!!!!). I cant wait to see everyones faces and give hugs after getting off the bus, meet new people and new friends, have our first dinner and make "special" brownies (hee hee), modify the birkhat hamazon to be tawonga style (Ashem, will give strength unto the people... :), sneak out the first night, find out what big fun is, have our first services and sit in that big room (i have no idea what it is called) together, have the best dance ever and finish off the night with a great movie, come back to the bunks so tired you think your going to pass out and then blowing yourself away by singing disney all night (and morning) till there are no more left to sing, seeing the fresno crew and getting a kevin hug :), see dina and alex together, singing rent with sammy and lorain ( I looooove u guys sooo much), have havdala and pass the kiss, and sing the NFTY song!!
"Say what's your name? Say NFTY!
Say what's your name? Say NFTY!
Say what's your name? Say NFTY!
Gonna live and die for N-F-T-Y!
NFTY's in the front HEY HEY HEY
Let me hear you grunt HEY HEY HEY
NFTY's in the middle HEY HEY HEY
Let me hear you giggle Ha Ha Ha!
Never in the rear No, no, no
Let me hear you cheer!
WHOOOOO!!
Ya got it? Yeah!
Ya got it? Yeah!
It's in my knees, my knees are weak
It's in my mouth, I cannot speak
It's in my hair, it's over there,
it's over there, it's everywhere!
Say what's your name? Say NFTY!
Say what's your name? Say NFTY!
Say what's your name? Say NFTY!
Gonna live and die for N-F-T-Y!"
To all my nfty and to be nfty friends, i cannot wait and i have to say i am more excited for tri than i am for... anything, even my birthday! :)
I would love to keep going and type all night but i know i will regret it in the morning. Love always, xoxo